Am I supposed to be happy? 
When all I ever wanted, it comes with a price--

- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Cat and Mouse

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“For all the ways that I can’t love you,” she says, not once glancing up at you as she writes, “I’ll do this.”

You stifle a smile. Her mouth says “I cannot love you” but her hands, fragile and shaking as they write, say, “I do”. You love her, but she will not allow it. She loves you, but she can’t let it happen. You ask, even though you already know her answer, “You’ll write for me?”

She nods, hums a tiny “mm” in response.

“Why not say it?” you ask— a needless question.

“Because I can’t. You know why.”

“Do I?”

She looks up, finally, brown eyes dark but gaze burning when she glares at you. “Don’t be difficult,” she says, the words spoken in a huff as she looks back down at her paper.

You are Polaris, guiding light on cloudless nights,

You are—

She hunches over before you can continue reading, her shoulders taut with nervousness as she hides her words behind her arms.

You laugh at the sudden show of shyness.

You say that you can’t give me everything, you think, sitting beside her and leaning away to let her know you’re not looking, but you already have.

She glances up, and you smile.

This is everything.

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@anon1 - YES!!!!!!!!!!! YES HOLY SHIT
I  LOVE THIS HEADCANON SO MUCH IT NEEDS TO BE AN ACTUAL THING
I can imagine it, everyone helping Alluka feel comfortable and teaching her so many things, be it regarding fashion taste or nen usage. JESUS, imagine Canary/Palm/Bisky teaching her self-defense. Alluka being really determined to get it right until she does and she’d be so, so happy!! “Look at what I can do, onii-chan!” she’d say to Killua with the widest grin he’s ever seen on her. IT’D BE BEAUTIFUL. Shiiittt I need to get on that hahaha [one day, I s2g I’ll write it]
@anon2 - ugH my hearttt, u slay me anon
this is so legit tho, considering how Alluka has always been hidden away from the world- until now! It’d be no surprise that he’d be protective as heck over her with regards to the dudes she likes because how does she know that he’s safe? That he’ll protect her and love her??
BUT THE GON LOOK. omfg that kills me. Killua would know what she means- because unlike him, Gon is really honest about his feelings when he looks at the people he cares about. UNLIKE KILLUA, Gon can look at him without having to wait for Killua to look away. And then he’d have to reluctantly accept him after the initial meeting because if he can make her happy, then why the fuck not??
@anon3 - LMAO ANON PLS
I can imagine it tho. Gon just crying to him, hugging him close—-
saying that he doesn’t want Killua to leave ever again because he was so sad and he realized it too late when Killua was already gone and he had no one beside him to keep him in line. And Killua would just hug him back, whispering things to him he’d never say if Gon were sober. 
Gon wouldn’t remember much the day after, but he’d feel lighter than before- like something heavy was lifted off his shoulders. Killua doesn’t tell him what happened, but that’s probably for the best. I MADE IT SORT OF SAD LMFAO I’M SORRYYYY

@anon1 - YES!!!!!!!!!!! YES HOLY SHIT

I  LOVE THIS HEADCANON SO MUCH IT NEEDS TO BE AN ACTUAL THING

I can imagine it, everyone helping Alluka feel comfortable and teaching her so many things, be it regarding fashion taste or nen usage. JESUS, imagine Canary/Palm/Bisky teaching her self-defense. Alluka being really determined to get it right until she does and she’d be so, so happy!! “Look at what I can do, onii-chan!” she’d say to Killua with the widest grin he’s ever seen on her. IT’D BE BEAUTIFUL. Shiiittt I need to get on that hahaha [one day, I s2g I’ll write it]

@anon2 - ugH my hearttt, u slay me anon

this is so legit tho, considering how Alluka has always been hidden away from the world- until now! It’d be no surprise that he’d be protective as heck over her with regards to the dudes she likes because how does she know that he’s safe? That he’ll protect her and love her??

BUT THE GON LOOK. omfg that kills me. Killua would know what she means- because unlike him, Gon is really honest about his feelings when he looks at the people he cares about. UNLIKE KILLUA, Gon can look at him without having to wait for Killua to look away. And then he’d have to reluctantly accept him after the initial meeting because if he can make her happy, then why the fuck not??

@anon3 - LMAO ANON PLS

I can imagine it tho. Gon just crying to him, hugging him close—-

saying that he doesn’t want Killua to leave ever again because he was so sad and he realized it too late when Killua was already gone and he had no one beside him to keep him in line. And Killua would just hug him back, whispering things to him he’d never say if Gon were sober. 

Gon wouldn’t remember much the day after, but he’d feel lighter than before- like something heavy was lifted off his shoulders. Killua doesn’t tell him what happened, but that’s probably for the best. I MADE IT SORT OF SAD LMFAO I’M SORRYYYY

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Anonymous said: aaah im the anon who asked for the killugon kisses and saw what you drew + wrote right after waking up and it made me smile so big, thanks a lot!!! you're so kind!!!!

<3 <3!! I’m glad you liked it, friend! I’m always happy and willing to draw/write about my otps for people who want some cheer-me-ups <3

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Anonymous said: What if Gon came home one day and Killua was really drunk and he was sitting in front of the TV in tears because he was watching Ponyo and he's just. so upset like "Gon I can't do this she loves Sousuke so mu-huh-huuuch." And Gon's standing there like "Killua you've killed people. What would Silva say if he saw you now. My god."

im fu cking laughing oh my g oddd this is so LEGIT

Killua would be that one kid who acts tough through the end of Miracle in Cell No. 7 but u can fuckin tell he cried even when he strongly denies it while Gon is just

"Killua are you okay"

"of course i am hahahaha why wouldnt i be" all while keeping his head turned away from Gon because he doesnt want Gon to realize that he DID cry even though Gon already knows he did hahahaha

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Anonymous said: would u draw some happy smile-y killugon kisses to cheer up someone who's having a hard time if thats okay ;~; only if u want to of course

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/hugs u <3 I hope things get better for you, friend! And I am a-ok with drawing my otps for peeps who need cheer-me-ups! Please feel free to ask me to draw stuff- heck, you can even talk to me on my side-blog about how your day is going so far, if you want. I’d be glad to listen!

This goes for everyone else who’s following me too, of course <3 If you guys need someone to listen to you, my inbox is open for y’all! Or, if you’d prefer somewhere less public, you can add me on Skype! uwu <3

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Anonymous said: I don't suppose you'd want to write a little kirugon fluffy drabble where they're cuddling in bed and Gon wakes up before Killua and just looks at him and thinks about how beautiful Killua is, but also how much he regrets hurting him during the Chimera Ant arc. Your writing is always so spot on, it's pretty much canon! I'm a huge fan of your work, keep it up lovely <333

jfc what a beautiful prompt. Thank you!! <3 (Both for the prompt and the compliment, ehehe.) I hope you like this drabble as well, friend! 

[Whoops, almost forgot to mention. This fic would probably make more sense if you read this one first!]

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“Mm…”

Gon groans when he wakes, the bed creaking in protest when he rolls over until he’s on his back. Dazed and head full of fluff, he yawns, rubbing at his eyes to get rid of the blurriness underneath his eyelids. Vaguely, he notices something different- something off- but what was it?

He rolls over to his left and he thinks, Ah.

It’s this.

He smiles, reaching out to toy with silver-white locks. The touch is careful, gentle so he won’t wake Killua, until it’s not. He runs his hand through white locks and Killua mumbles an incoherent reply, burrowing deeper into the blanket they’re sharing.

Are you really asleep? Gon wonders, smiling in amusement. He props his head up with a hand under his chin, his elbow resting on one of their pillows, before moving his other arm to tug the blanket up over Killua’s shoulder. He lets his arm stay where it is instead of removing it, scooting closer until he’s half-cuddling Killua to his chest. Killua makes a tiny sound at the movement but doesn’t resist, remaining asleep (?) even as Gon starts tracing circles over pale skin covered only by a single fabric.

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Anonymous said: Do you get a lot of writing requests? How many would you say you get in a day/week?

Hmm, I get a few, but not that much I think! It just looks like I get a lot because I take too long with the few requests I have…ha ha ha…..

I don’t really get a request per week, so it’s hard to say! I think I get 1-2 requests per month? I’m not very good at calculations, sorry ;-;

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i did a thing

i did a thing

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another compilation of doodles i posted on twitter! [can you guys tell how hard i’m procrastinating from doing uni stuff hahaha]

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